my day is one BIG mess. it all started out perfectly and now i'm just so pissed. i wanna cry but no tears are coming.

my mum and i had a fight. it's all so mababaw but i still feel bad about it. why feel bad? it's because i started it.. i know i've been insensitive and i haven't been going home early lately.. but it's all because my dad got confined and so i don't have anyone to come home to in the afternoons since my mum and my tita is in the hospital with my dad. now that they're home, i try as much as possible to go home early but it's not that easy at all. i have my responsibilites in school too - loads of projects to be exact.

it's all because i wasn't able to go out at 4:15.. the time i told our driver to come pick me up.. i really intended to come home early but school kept me otherwise.. well, not really.. basically, i just hung out with my friends since.. but i was waiting for wed, jen, peter and margie to come out of remedial classes because i wanted to ask about our shoot.. i went out at around 5pm thinking that everything's ok.. apparently, things weren't ok. my mum came with the driver to pick me up pala since they'd be going to the hospital to pay the balance that caritas wouldn't be paying and to have my dad's platelet counted. once i got in the car, my mum started blabbing na. i didn't even have a chance to defend myself. i know i deserve to be given a lecture but she was just so harsh and i was really hurt. my whole day became a mess after that.

i just said sorry to her a few minutes ago but i still feel hurt and i really want to cry. unfortunately, the tears aren't coming. i'll just have to forget about it and think about the brighter things in life. oh well. i just hope we'll be okay come dinner time.